It started when I was little,and became worse as I grew up. At a young age, anxiety started to control my life. They usually occurred at random times with no explanation. I want others to know how difficult and serious Anxiety Disorder can be. Many people ask me what my anxiety attacks are like, but I can never find the words to explain it. The severity of my attacks differ from minor to very intense. Some attacks are very painful, but some are also very minor. I have had many major anxiety attacks in my life, but there is always one specific attack will always remember.
2 years ago, my family and I drove to my stepfather’s small home town, O’Neill Nebraska, to visit our family. Everything was calm and relaxing as we headed south in our black
pickup. We finally arrived at one of the only few hotels in the small town, relieved to escape the constant vibrations of the highway. My anxiety didn’t increase until we settled into our hotel room, where my mom and I were relaxing and watching TV inside our room. With every second, anxiety made my heart pound faster in my chest. My anxiety became a painful nightmare, and this was just the beginning.
Consequently, my hands began to shake uncontrollably as my heart rate increased rapidly. Every part of my body started trembling while blood swam faster through my veins. My mind overflowed with fear, causing tears to drain from my eyes. My mom didn’t know quite what to do, but comfort me. She had me lay with her on her hotel bed as attempted to calm me down. I just kept wondering what was happening to me, or what was going to happen next. My breaths became shorter as my heart beats faster, and I started feel sharp pain in my chest. I couldn’t seem to catch my breath. I was hyperventilating. Anxiety was dominating me.
In addition, my eyes were shaky, making it hard to see or focus my eyes on anything. I started to become nauseous, as my head became to feel lighter. I laid there shaking in fear, as my body tensed up. I felt fear because I couldn’t control what was happening to me. Emotions crammed through me like cars rushing in 5 O’clock traffic. I was feeling embarrassed, confused, afraid, and most of all, I felt as if I was dying. It might seem dramatic to say that, but it was true. Fear took over my body and I lost all control. I just wanted that living nightmare to end, and it eventually did. After 45 minutes, I started to calm down. I was able to breathe more easily, and my body shook less. As my anxiety decreased, I started gaining control back little by little.
At this time, it was my worst anxiety attack I have experienced, but since then I have lived through many more. This experience made me realize how serious my disorder was, and helped me learn how to cope with it. Anxiety Disorder can change how a life is lived and be very serious. I have experienced many anxiety attacks in my life, but this one I will always remember. It started to dominate my life and made me fear every day to come ahead. It started dragging me into deep depression, until I learned to control and tame my anxiety disorder. Facing my fears and taking control of my anxiety disorder, made me learn that I can decide and control the path of my life.
2 years ago, my family and I drove to my stepfather’s small home town, O’Neill Nebraska, to visit our family. Everything was calm and relaxing as we headed south in our black
pickup. We finally arrived at one of the only few hotels in the small town, relieved to escape the constant vibrations of the highway. My anxiety didn’t increase until we settled into our hotel room, where my mom and I were relaxing and watching TV inside our room. With every second, anxiety made my heart pound faster in my chest. My anxiety became a painful nightmare, and this was just the beginning.
Consequently, my hands began to shake uncontrollably as my heart rate increased rapidly. Every part of my body started trembling while blood swam faster through my veins. My mind overflowed with fear, causing tears to drain from my eyes. My mom didn’t know quite what to do, but comfort me. She had me lay with her on her hotel bed as attempted to calm me down. I just kept wondering what was happening to me, or what was going to happen next. My breaths became shorter as my heart beats faster, and I started feel sharp pain in my chest. I couldn’t seem to catch my breath. I was hyperventilating. Anxiety was dominating me.
In addition, my eyes were shaky, making it hard to see or focus my eyes on anything. I started to become nauseous, as my head became to feel lighter. I laid there shaking in fear, as my body tensed up. I felt fear because I couldn’t control what was happening to me. Emotions crammed through me like cars rushing in 5 O’clock traffic. I was feeling embarrassed, confused, afraid, and most of all, I felt as if I was dying. It might seem dramatic to say that, but it was true. Fear took over my body and I lost all control. I just wanted that living nightmare to end, and it eventually did. After 45 minutes, I started to calm down. I was able to breathe more easily, and my body shook less. As my anxiety decreased, I started gaining control back little by little.
At this time, it was my worst anxiety attack I have experienced, but since then I have lived through many more. This experience made me realize how serious my disorder was, and helped me learn how to cope with it. Anxiety Disorder can change how a life is lived and be very serious. I have experienced many anxiety attacks in my life, but this one I will always remember. It started to dominate my life and made me fear every day to come ahead. It started dragging me into deep depression, until I learned to control and tame my anxiety disorder. Facing my fears and taking control of my anxiety disorder, made me learn that I can decide and control the path of my life.
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